6.2

so it is Friday. ahhhh friday the day that everyone looks forward to… except this weekend will be no different from my week, i might even be working harder and sleeping less (not for the sake of fun but instead for work.) fridays should included happy hours and apps, not stupid puppets that don’t work.
sometimes i just wish we did normal theater. i know that everyone loves what we do (and so do i) but it would be so much easier to just produce already written realistic shows. i am just feeling lazy and overwhelmed right now, i know that i would really hate making average theater. today will be the 6th day in a row that i have been either at the theater or 5 green boxes for over 12hrs. per day and even when i make it home i am still working on shit.
last night as i was driving home, my tire blew out. i went to sleep knowing that i would have to change it in the morning. i was going to go in early to finish the puppets, so i would just have to get up a bit earlier, but then i forgot and started to drive away. i stopped to change it and it was again an ordeal, the wheel wouldn’t come off. can nothing be on my side this week? i also can’t find my drivers liscence. i have to do a lot of shit before i leave for NY, including a 3000 piece mailer that no one has time for. AHHHHHHHH. lucky i have a valid passport if i can’t find my drivers liscence.
should i buy a powerball ticket for tomorrow’s drawing? someday karma has to swing back, right? maybe it's tomorrow.

i did take enough of a break on wednesday to watch “so you think you can dance” and i still love it. it just keeps getting harder. i want nick to win. i don’t even understand if there will be a guy and a girl who win or just one person. anyway, one of the judges (who straightened his hair for this episode, bad choice brian, i think he might have even had a weave ugh.) said that nick belonged on stage with celine dion, not so sure that is a compliment but nick sure took it as one. he is such a smiler, i love him.

i just bought a wedding present and i am not sure how i am getting it there, don’t worry people i am not going to spoil it, i am 100% sure that liz (the bride) reads this, so i will just say that i might wait to give it to them when they have the denver reception. that’s kosher right? i mean wedding rules say i have a year to give them a gift, so a couple weeks shouldn’t be a problem. then they can figure out how to get it back to the city.

recommendation: take time for dancing.

6.1

so, i'll go a bit out of order...
the contractors failed. and so we have been building our own set/house. it sucks, the stress is overwhelming, i am exhausted. i spent sunday (after working for five hrs) framing and working of the postcard. i spent 10 hours yesterday drywalling and mudding. so tired. the shows happen very very soon and i am leaving for five days in the middle here. oh well, nothing to be done. i will have a great time in NYC, the rest of buntport is totally capable of doing it with out me, it is just one less person that might be helpful during crunch time. oh well.

so now for the fun of life (yes i am back to the fun, even if i am still draggin a bit); friday night my boy was supposed to meet my college friends. we were supped to go to dinner and hang out etc. but i got a call that he was stuck at work. i was totally fine with the prospect of marc not making dinner, i wasn't even really disappointed except i knew what the others reaction would be... not good. anyway, they were a little peeved about it but we had fun anyway. we went to pete's central one, a greek place, where the food just keeps coming: apps, soup, salad, gyros and ouzo(sp?), yes the ouzo(sp?) just kept flowing. and we got a little tossed at dinner. then we went over to sputnik where marc finally did meets us, (lucky cuz there was about to be a mutiny, i think they were about to go kidnapp him from kinkos) he had had a rough/long day at work, but then we started to drink, and drink a lot. we went next door to see the hot iqs play and to send them on their trip to cmj, it was a good show they even played "fucking on the nightstand" which they never play anymore. We all went home, not totally sure how everyone got to their respective house but i feel confident they did.
marc and i were both super hung-over in the morning, and stumbled to breakfast before i had to get to work. which reminds me i should get some groceries because eating at home is easier sometimes. anyway, wrap it up sam... it was a very fun and drunk evening, i haven't had one of those in a long time.
saturday night was the lupec crush party. also quite fun. michael (the distant one, the original) came to my house to learn about her new mac for awhile, then we went to the early lupec mixer. lupec (ladies untied for the preservation of endangered cocktails) are a fun group of gals who drink a lot (fun drinks) and network/chat about politics and women’s history. after the mixer (at sputnik) we went next door (to the hi-dive) (deja vu.) there were three of my favorite djs (marc/the postman, andrea/yer mom, and michael/giddy wigdan) and drink specials to benefit planned parenthood. also they had crush-o-grams: for $1 you could send a pin to a crush and write a note, for another $1 the crushee could get the note from the crusher and find out the identity, so fun. i got four buttons. i am sooooo popular. just kidding. but it sure was exciting to get pins. michael and i ditched out early but still had a really good time, supported a good cause and saw some friends.

in conclusion: i had a fun weekend even though i am really stressed out. my random friends (who are important just not always present) got to meet my boy. and they like him a lot, they might even love him, whatever, they approve.

recommendation: send middle school note to people, you know the type, check this box if you like me...

5.3

this was the fortune in the cookie i got today at spicy basil:
do it because you love it

at a previous visit to the same establishment i got a fortune that said:
kiss the person next to you

so great. i think that there is some sort of extremely perfect meaning in the one i got today, but i can't go into it right now.

recommendation: thai chicken pockets at spicy basil (i think they are just a basic basil chicken that you wrap in iceburg lettuce, but it is so good)

5.2

so when you are in the midst of an existentcial crisis it is great to have friends that fill different roles...
the friends who nod and question, the friends who agree and wallow with you, the friends who will try to over analyze and fix it, the list continues. i am thankful to all of the people i have forced to listen to me over the past couple days. I am a bit of a wreak, crying in coffee shops all over town. it is rare that i am like this and it must mean something.
is it the hurricane and flooding? the disorganization and chaos that is leading to death and unnecessary destruction? the racism? the government's lack of response? the feeling of helplessness and hopelessness? is that what is causing my melancholy?

is it the anxiety about the shows? my recent lack of interest in everything related to theater? the guilt i feel for being able to do whatever i want to in terms of my art, and not being inspired to do anything? is that the hollowness i feel?

is it the loneliness? the longing for friends that are not here? and the self-reproach because i am very lucky to have the friends i do? i am surrounded by love and well aware that (as cheesey as it sounds) i have to fill my own emptiness. is my gloominess caused by the ideal that i should be happy and therefore blame myself because i am not?

anyway, enough blah blah, this is like a freakin’ diary entry, well i guess they all are, but this one is like i am in 9th grade or something… “what am a going to do with my life? what if bobby doesn’t like me? what should i wear to school tomorrow” LAME.

Recommendation: make a happy mix tape, and dance yourself silly. mine includes: mates of state (haha) shins (new slang) commom (the light) and the killers (mr. brightside)

5.1

updates:
#1 i went to the apple store and to no surprise the cord worked fine...then i left and it stopped again. but luckily enough marc had an extra cord, so problem solved.
#2 i am on round two of antibiotics for this stupid throat shit.
#3 the wood came to build the set, but it hasn't been built yet. panic is setting in.

and now for the ramblings...
there is a movement in my social circle for the autumn of productivity to follow the summer of fun. the movement is slow but kinda inspiring, we'll see what comes of it.

since my last post my past week goes like this: (i like to title them)

tuesday: girl’s night. i went out with my girls from college, i never see them anymore. it is weird when you spend three years (it would have been four except for study abroad programs) with people almost everyday, and then not at all. we were friends for the simple reason of proximity; we just lived near each other freshman year, and then couldn’t escape. i am glad it worked out they are really great, and unlike anyone i know. we went out to celebrate: michael got her braces off (yes, female pronoun, she is one of two girls named michael who have inhabited my life) she was 27 with braces and i am so happy for her that they are gone. her teeth are beautiful and perfect now.

celebration #2 Pui got engaged. she has been dating this guy michael (i know. it was even more confusing when michael was dating a different guy named michael because then I had to refer to them as michael and michael and michael and pui.) for years now and she has finally overcome her fear of commitment. he is fantastic, and they are both very lucky to have found each other. i don’t know many people who could put up with pui. i love them both, wishes of happiness and wealth.

wednesday: dance night. justin and i watched “so you think you can dance” boy do I love that show. the suspense is killing me. who will get cut. stay tuned.
then we went to an old school nintendo party at rise. now, think of how great an old school nintendo party could be and then imagine the disappointment. there were only 3 people in costume, only one place to play, and the only game was mario. and to top it off we were in lodo, at rise. i didn’t hate it. that is all i have to say. except to try to inspire people to throw their own old school video game parties, just think of how great they could be…ahhhhhhh.

thursday: science picnic. talked about: intelligent design. adam and eve vs. dinos. weight of clouds. mammals that can’t jump. panda cartwheels. consuming tons of cheese. color of blood. dogs clucking and chickens barking. overall it was a fun and educational evening. go science.

friday: datenight. I tried my very hardest to get marc to just plan a date. but he keep giving me choices, which is nice but i am at my most indecisive right now and will do anything. i ended up choosing a lovely evening of le central (mussels and fries) and bowling. i killed the first game of bowling but then realized i was dating a freaking hustler, after we had bet of course, and lost the next two games. now i owe him some socks (which I bought yesterday, super hot, brown w/ pink skulls. I am 95% sure he doesn’t read this, but if you’re reading this marc, way to ruin a surprise.) then we watched dogville which is a really long, not exciting movie that will kill any kind of romance that had been in motion. oh well. saturday morning continuation of datenight: marc met my mom while letting out my cat, (awk.) i thought it was funny. so did my mom.

saturday: virgosupercluster party. karen and wendy had a combo birthday party (will the birthdays ever end?) it was fun but I was so tired. too much fun and work. there was a fashion challenge, a poetry challenge, a lot of culinary delights and enjoyable company, but i retired early. i had to work at 8:30am, stupid new job getting in the way of fun.

sunday: non-commital day of lazy. i went to work at 5 green boxes then visited the farmers market. started to lazy out and went home to chill. marc came over and we watched some bad t.v. thought about going to movies, got a call from some kids about going to see 40 y/o virgin, and the decision was made. it was a great Sunday afternoon, just how they should be.

monday: moody day of labor. i caught a funk yesterday and was all kinds of moody, i was lonely and teary and full of self-pity. i hate myself when i am like that. i also don’t want to be that girl, the wet blanket, ho-hum girl. so instead of inflicting my pouting on others, i wallowed by myself.

this post is too long, and i didn’t even say anything. Maybe next time.

recommendations: slurpees. did i already recommend slurpees? well here it is again. slurpees.